I can't believe I forgot. I knew that my parents had gone for more scans to check the progress of his treatments and were awaiting the results. Well apparently they received the results a couple of days ago. My mom told me tonight.
All areas show growth of the cancer. No shrinkage, no slowing, nothing. Originally the doctor had said that my dad had 6 months without treatment and 18 months with. If the treatment is not working does that mean we're back to 6 months (I think 5 have already passed)? They have to wait a week to talk to the oncologist. You should NOT have to wait when you are terminally ill. It is wrong and it makes me soooo angry. I got all emotional last night just feeling like I really needed to be with my dad... Tonight I feel desperate to be with him. But he is working. Working! If I were him I'd QUIT. Although he is rightfully concerned about health care. I feel like all of the excesses in his life should be removed. He just should be as happy and as comfortable as possible.
This whole thing is just wrong. It feels so heavy, so twisted. I realize that I am not the first daughter to face losing a father, but it feels unbearable.
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